Thursday, August 18, 2011

Too Much!

'I must learn to love the the fool in me, the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries.'

- Theodore Isaac Rubin

I have had second thoughts since my last Post. As a result, the decision has been made to simply thank you for your Comments and to let you know that I am very grateful to you for the feedback, both on the blog and by private email. I will not respond individually for fear of further implicating myself. There is a history attached to the story; I know things will not change. For me, it is undesirable! I do have a plan and will go about taking steps to implement it.

Today I had a phone call from my Tai Chi teacher. Attending classes in the village has been an interesting experience. I began yoga and Tai Chi when we moved permanently to the farm. I had expectations of meeting the locals and forming friendships. Three years of classes and yet my absence appeared to have gone unnoticed in spite of the fact that my circumstances were known. Until Vickie, teacher, phoned recently, there had been no word from anyone. She asked about making the trip from Dungog to Gresford to meet me for coffee. I suggested the farm was a good spot as Haydn has now mastered the coffee maker and cappuccinos are on the menu. Cappuccinos were my poison of choice after Jeremy's accident! They were the very things that kept me alive at the time. They have now been recognised as my downfall, contributing to my current health crisis.

It was interesting to learn from Vickie that she felt the room 'lit up' on my arrival. I asked her if that could somehow be responsible for the the ladies of Gresford making no effort to be friendly.

Now! That is another post.

'Do not give too much to feelings. An overly sensitive heart is an unhappy possession on this earth'
- Johan Wolfgang von Goeth


Beth L. Gainer said...


It's unfortunate that your classmates are so unfriendly. I think it's wonderful that you light up the room.

How do you like Tai Chi? I'm thinking of enrolling in a class.

Kaz said...

Chez wish i could be there for everything with you,Agree with Beth you do light up a room your wisdom has so much to learn from,you have taught me lots my friend.wish i had answer for you to get you thru,but know Chez I care lots.Chez always A EAR for you.always..

Love and Hugs always,

fire.hawksmom said...

Now that's a beautiful comment that I bet brightened your day my friend! Somehow I can "see" you being the sunshine in a room! Trust your plans and decisions as you never make haste and you always seem to search and ponder your options for the good of all!
Strength, love and courage I pray will be yours in all you do!
Thanks for sharing with us all! We care so very much for you!!♥
Love, Martha

Sue in Italia/In the Land Of Cancer said...

I know too well about posting too much. I gave away my older daughter's secret by mistake the other day and erased it a few hours later but I have not been forgiven.

That was so sweet of your instructor sharing her positive feelings.